Not sure why this didn't post yesterday so its being posted today along with today's post.
So, I was going to T4A. I was doing something really crazy and scary. I was doing this thing that was totally out of character for myself. I was going to travel to Austin, 6 hours away by myself, room with a woman I had never met (and for all I knew she might be a serial killer. Just kidding.) and attend an adoption conference not knowing a single person attending. I would be lying if I said, I didn’t have thoughts of not attending because this was so outside of my comfort zone. I couldn’t remember the last time I had driven a long distance without anyone else in the car. I have never spent the night with another person without knowing them first. Then not really knowing why I was attending this conference, I really was thinking about not attending. But God had different plans. He made it that I would need to have a travel companion from a city 90 minutes north of me. Layla would drive down to my house and we would travel to Austin together. The day before leaving, I would be looking at and praying over children who needed families listed on the Reeces Rainbow waiting children’s list. I came across a little girl who would literally take my breath away. She was beautiful!! to say the least. She had the prettiest blue eyes and the saddest expression on her face. All I could think was that I needed to find her a family. She deserved one. I would show her picture to my family and we would start praying for her.
So, I was going to T4A. I was doing something really crazy and scary. I was doing this thing that was totally out of character for myself. I was going to travel to Austin, 6 hours away by myself, room with a woman I had never met (and for all I knew she might be a serial killer. Just kidding.) and attend an adoption conference not knowing a single person attending. I would be lying if I said, I didn’t have thoughts of not attending because this was so outside of my comfort zone. I couldn’t remember the last time I had driven a long distance without anyone else in the car. I have never spent the night with another person without knowing them first. Then not really knowing why I was attending this conference, I really was thinking about not attending. But God had different plans. He made it that I would need to have a travel companion from a city 90 minutes north of me. Layla would drive down to my house and we would travel to Austin together. The day before leaving, I would be looking at and praying over children who needed families listed on the Reeces Rainbow waiting children’s list. I came across a little girl who would literally take my breath away. She was beautiful!! to say the least. She had the prettiest blue eyes and the saddest expression on her face. All I could think was that I needed to find her a family. She deserved one. I would show her picture to my family and we would start praying for her.
Once we got to Austin, I would have the privilege of meeting Lorraine, Amy, Julie, Angel, Julia, Carolyne, and so many others that would bless me. During the first day of the conference, I would be so overwhelmed with the statistics. The sheer numbers were taking me back. Knowing that each year, the number would jump by approximately 25 million. The numbers of children that would be taken into some form of forced slavery. Oh my word. Just devastating. I would end up sharing this little girl’s face with many at the conference in the hopes of finding her a family. People said she was beautiful. But no one was jumping up and down saying she was theirs. I was confused. That night I would get a message from my hubby saying,”None of us can stop thinking about this little girl.” I understood. Somehow she was already under my skin as well. The next morning, as we were worshiping, Aaron Ivey was playing a song that I had never heard before. I thought it was strange as I was listening and singing every single word as if I had written it myself. The song is AmosStory song. It’s his promise to their children that he and his wife would do whatever it took to get to them and bring them home. I cried. Then the original speaker for the morning was unable to attend due to some medical issues. So, the sub was a man by the name of Robert Galinas. He is out of a church in Colorado Springs I believe. Anyway, as I was sitting there listening to him speak, I hear this man talking about MY life. He and his wife had four kids. Two boys and two girls. Check. They were done having kids. They had the perfect equal numbers of each gender. Check. Life was good. Check. Life was comfortable.Check. Then it happened. God started moving on his wife’s heart one more time to adopt. check She saw the picture. check. Then he started asking some really hard questions. Like,”What is the reason you give for not adopting?” Ok, I’ll admit this one wasn’t hard for me. It was really simple to be honest. It’s everybody’s first response – MONEY. Yep, that was my greatest fear. Then he asked a couple more. Then he came back to money. He asked this question,”If money is the only reason that is stopping you from adopting, what is it you are saying to God then? Are you calling God a deadbeat dad?” Can we just say that that statement made me want to crawl underneath my seat and hide? I literally started to cry at this point. I can honestly say I don’t remember much more about what he said after that. All I know is I started to repent and cry that ugly girl cry we all do when we are sorry and scared. During this time, I remember hearing God whisper in my heart,”Whom shall I send?” and all I could say was, “Lord, send me. I will go.” Then that sweet little girl’s face swept across my mind and believing he said to me,”Then she’s yours.”
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