I realize I haven't posted in awhile and I've been sitting on this post for awhile. Not able to post it because, well I'm not sure and yet for many reasons, but mostly because I haven't wanted to, haven't had the words really to share what's in my heart. So, today, I took a look at this post and decided I would share it. I pray that it reflects my heart right now.
After writing the post below, I started to think of the littles that are all WAITING for someone to come and choose them to be a part of their forever family. Many have been waiting for such a long time. And yet, so many of us have chosen not to do anything. We have made our decisions based on us. Where we are in our lives, what we are doing, where we are going (or not going) in our five year plan. We base it on what we will have to give up and yet, there are 163 million + children waiting for you, me, our neighbor to get on the ball, to make a decision to be the ones to go and choose them. The endless faces who have nothing. They don't even know what a 5 year plan is. They worry about today. About where their next meal will come from. Whether or not someone will come to take them home. To give them a safe place, a haven, to be loved on and cared for.
Have we chosen to worship ourselves and not the One who created us if we sit and do nothing? If we move on behalf of the orphan, widow, child who has been trafficked into something more heinous than we could ever imagine, are we not moving in a way that would worship the God of the universe? Would our hearts really be the heart of God if we move towards the lost, the broken, the one who is deemed unworthy?
Several weeks ago, there was a child who was needing a family. It is a dire situation. I pledged to pray and even blog about her. I shared her plight with my husband. We were sitting in bed while reading about her and I could see the wheels turning in K's head. I have to admit that I was got quite nervous. I KNEW what that look meant. I could tell he was thinking about this little girl. He was contemplating what we could do to possibly commit to her. I walked away for a minute and that's all it took for Kevin to start looking up all of the diagnoses that were listed. I read along with him and got scared to be honest. The list was massive and for me, very overwhelming. Yet, here was a child that desperately needed a home. Otherwise she was facing emanate death. I knew there wasn't anyway we could commit to her because the agency needed people who were paper ready. And we are definitely NOT that family. Not even close. But the fact that Kevin was even considering her after 6 months or so not wanting to consider a child with special needs much less severe special needs was a God moment. The good news is M has a family!!!! With in 48 hours (less I think) this family had stepped up to be this child's forever family. When I mentioned it to Kevin, he was a bit disappointed I think. I'm not sure he even knew what he was feeling.
So, what does this have to do with waiting? A lot really. There are so many kids out there just waiting. Can you imagine their patience and endurance? I can't. I have really never had to wait for anything like that. Giving birth, 40 weeks, not a long wait in comparison to our sweet S.H. who has been waiting for a mommy and daddy to come get her for what will be 2 years when she is finally listed again (at the minimum). She's been in the orphanage since she was born and we still can't get to her because of the timing. What about this little guy, Peter, (third picture down) has been waiting for a very long time as well. There are soooo many.
I think I just may be rambling. This post may be all over the place. Not intentionally. I have so many thoughts going through my head. Kids who are beaten, abused. Looking for love in all the wrong places. Street kids. Orphans. Widows. Kids who are lost and broken. Special needs. HIV/AIDS. Money~lack thereof. People wanting to go but can't. Won't. Will limit what we will consider because it may be too much. Selfishness. Telling God what we can handle. Truth is, we are telling Him what we WON'T handle. I'm looking in the mirror and not liking who I am seeing at this point. I'm not seeing Jesus reflected because I was too afraid. I'll share in a post at a later date on how God didn't leave me sitting in that fear. He's such a good God.
I'm not sure how I wanted to end this post honestly. So, I'm just going to end it by asking, "What won't you do for God and the children He has commanded us to serve, bring home, love on, care for~ despite their circumstance in life?"
May He be glorified in your obedience to lay it before the LORD, being honest with Him and then acting on what He has called you to do.
STWTHE,
Laurie
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